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Struggles With Passivity.
Why am I so passive?
It's not because I'm lazy, that just simply isn't it. I've proven that time and time again. I've worked overtime without pay. I've painted in the bathroom at a hotel at 1:00 a.m. 
I got all 100s in art history. I worked my butt off on a paper for Refugees. I stayed up late after working the whole day paper-macheing kids animals. I am not lazy. I am passive. Why? Cause I'm hella afraid. And insecure. Though I guess those insecurities find their roots in fear. 
But. I can in fact do these things. Or I can burn brightly trying. 
Beloved. BE LOVED.

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